Remaining days of 2008

My posting has been stagnant ever since I decided to stop blogging at the start of the year. Recently, with the semester break after the exams, I had lot of spare time and I remembered weeks ago, I was browsing at my posts made over these past few years. Time really files; and if not for this blog, I may not even remember the year those events took place.

In 2008, I have experienced a new chapter of my life as I completed my National Service and began my studies at NTU. Personally, I felt serving NS is like under a shelter when there is a rain. All we have to do is to perform the tasks assigned properly and life would go on. It is after ORD where we have to step out of this shelter and prepare ourselves for our future, fighting against the rain to reach our destination.

I found a part-time job soon after ORD and was working as a lab techinican in Tuas. This was also the period where I tried out the stock market. The lessons learnt were harsh and inexperience has cost me paper losses which I hope would decrease when the economy improves. As the world economy is currently experiencing a recession, the sight of a recovery seems far.The working experiences at Tuas was enriching, giving me a peek at the potential environment I may be under when I enter the labour force. In August, I started school in NTU, taking a 3 year degree course in Environmental Engineering.

I was elated when I was accepted a position in the local university. I started school, aspiring to strive for my best in this course. However, as the time passes and the workload increases, life becomes a struggle and my first semester has been demoralising for I have never studied and revised harder. Yet, at the end of the day, all that amount of effort put in are not for the hopes of achieving fantastic grades, but just plainly survival.

This kind of lifestyle has affected my health to. Gradually, I put on weight since I hardly exercise given the hectic lifestyle I am in. So, I hope in 2009, I can be more self-displicined to set aside some spare time for exercising as I am so afraid of "achieving new heights" on the weighting scale. Haha.

There is something else in me that didn't went well too. I started the year with lots of hopes and dreams. Now, I learnt not to hope.Some were achieved with my efforts while the others have not been so smooth-sailing. Sometimes, efforts does not constitute to success no matter the amount put in. It has been very disappointing. Its hard to accept and believe how things can change into. I have tried, and I never cared so much, not even on myself.

The year is coming to an end. I hope everyone will enjoy themselves with the remaining span of holidays left. Annyeong hi kaseyo!




I learnt not to hope.